I read Cindy’s post…not just once but several times. I couldn’t just hit “Like” (I cannot believe my mother in law is getting so savvy she knows the like button LOL) and I wanted to
say more than just “Comment”. We are
the best of friends…we go back a few years and do lots of things together. We always say that we were friends before our
kids ever got together. We have walked
the streets for several years…. so it was during those walks that we cussed and
discussed everything that was going on in our lives. When
we received news there was an adoption in the works it was quite the topic of
conversation….she spoke of her dreams of being “Nana”, and I’d like to reflect
back on the events of that day…….
It started out as just another Saturday. I had gone to Terre Haute and was just wandering
around doing my thing and my phone rings, it was Nicole, “we received the call
the baby is on the way and I’m waiting for Jason to get home from work so we
can head that way”. Jason had to be in
Indy very early that morning to take a Master Electrician test and then he had
planned to go onto work, little did he know the events that would take place
that day.
I was so excited, I gathered my belongings and wanted to
tell the world. I remember running into
Diane, she was the perfect person to see and tell of our news, Jason always
thought the world of her… I think it’s those blackberry pies she made for himJ. It was joyous news and we were just ecstatic
knowing we would get to meet that little bundle very soon. I continued to wander around on cloud nine
doing my own little thing. A couple
hours later I was leaving the mall and I get another phone call…this time it is
Jason….”mom, where are you ,why haven’t you been answering your phone? We’ve been trying to reach you (I have a heck
of a time hearing my phone and sometimes it’s a challenge just to answer it)
but he proceeded to tell me “there was a problem, she has changed her mind and
everything was on hold”. I was in
disbelief but it was something I always knew could possibly happen. I wasn’t bitter or sad….I think it was more
like devastated! It was like losing a
child, but we never held or laid eyes on this baby. We had no choice but to pick up the pieces and
go on with our lives for there was no other option. I continue to think of that baby for he is
one that I pray has a good life and think of what could had been.
You think you are the only one that experiences something
like this but come to find out it happens more than you think. It’s just not a “club” you want to belong to.
While watching my kids and grandkids grow we have become
members of other “clubs” diabetes, celiac, anxiety, hemangioma…terms that I’ve
learned about the hard way. Once again,
I ask myself “WHY” and try to understand.
I have no answer, but the big guy up above has a plan for us all. I continue to feel blessed for my family
& friends and I’m amazed at how strong Jason & Nicole continue to be. I think I’ve learned something from them both,
Nicole’s posts are so inspiring! Have
faith and continue to believe that someday soon we will be blessed with that
bundle of joy for good things happen to good people.
Joyce (grandma)
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